so, my life continues to be turned upside down. i truly feel that i am depressed. if this is not depression, i don't know what is! is it bad that someone gave me some anxiety medication....not that i should be taking someone elses meds....but they obviously knew today was a rough day. i am trying to figure out the lesson that God is wanting me to learn. everything happens for a reason...i just hate going thru rough times and not being able to see that reason. it makes life sooo hard.
that being said, i cried today b/c i could not find apartments that will take you on a month to month rental. yes, got all worked up over that. i cried at emily's for unknown reasons...who the hell knows what triggered that crying spell. and then i cried this evening...but it was happy tears. can i just say, i have the sweetest five year old. ryan had a tooth pulled today b/c of a cavity. scott and i were making sure he put it under his pillow so the tooth fairy would bring him money. this was our conversation....
R: "will the tooth fairy still bring me money even though my tooth had a cavity?"
M:"yes, she will. she may not leave as much money but you still lost a tooth, so she will bring you something."
R:"well if she brings me any dollars, i will give them to you so we can buy a house."
tears rolled down my face.....just what i needed to hear.....the sweet innocence of a child. if only things were that easy, ryan, if only things were that easy!
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